Living Among Shadows

Posted: July 17, 2014 in Musings
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an excerpt from an amazing blog:

“Depressed people do not kill themselves simply because they are sad. Depressed people choose to end their lives because they are tired—tired of waiting for things to get better, and of listening to friends and family members tell them that it will get better if they just hold on.

Tired of hurting all the time when everyone says they should be happy.

Tired of the guilt of feeling like a burden or drain to everyone around them.

As I write this, I am in the midst of a depressive episode that has lasted almost five months. On even the best of days, it can take an enormous amount of energy just to get out of bed in the morning. Deciding whether to leave the house or even to see a few friends is like balancing my checkbook, making sure there are enough funds in my emotional bank account to attend even a small gathering.

Most days I avoid seeing people because the anxiety about what we might talk about or what we should do or what we should have for dinner is overwhelming.

Even finding the energy to finish this article is exhausting.”


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